Merry Meet all my CovenSpacers ..... I can't go into alot of details ... but im going threw alot of personal stuff that is just tearing what lil bit of heart i have left! Its hard to have a broken heart when it was never whole to begin with .... I am turning 30 in just a few short weeks ... and also on the 30th of this month will be the 20th annivercery of my Mothers Death .... I grew up with no family that cared for me no mother no father .... even after 20 years its still hard cause there is days that i need a hug ... I need my mother .... and or family but when your family is only a 9 yr old child its hard and you never have anyone to turn to in hard times ..... I have my sisters but yet they have there own lives and work hard and we dont get to see eachother as much as we would like to ..... I have alot of other personal things going on and noone to turn to .... no one to talk to .... I sit out here in BOOFOO alone .... the one man i truely love and care for dont understand me and yet would rather fight then try to understand what im going threw! its even harder on me when i have people telling me to let it go ... dont worry about it ... well when i have such a big heart and give my all to everyone and then only get stomped on in the end its hard not to let it get to me.... i just dont know what to do any more! I pray that the Goddess helps me in this path to make the right choices! but right now i feel im just in the dark and on my own. is there anyone out there that can relate? is there anyway to get past this .... I hope so cause i beleive in Karma and someday all the evil that is tryin to be put apon me will come back to those that are sending it out... its just karma dont work the way we always would like to .... or fast enough for us..... so please take a moment of your time and send me and my young son as much positive energy and healing energy that you can! to help us get past this Dark time.....
On a more postive note... me and my sisters are getting ready for Lammas ! we are gonna have a nice lil feast and ritual .... anyone who would like to join us contact me ... its held on aug 1 at 4 pm out here at my house ! and then we are supose to be celebrateing my 30th on aug 9 ... its messed up that im planning my own big 30th .... i really had hope that someone would have made an effort to plan something nice for me .... but that will not happen.
so blessed be all im sorry this blog was not more positvie just going threw alot and hopefully the BIG storm will move on and leave me in peace!
Merry Part !
Blessed Be
Starr